Addicted to Facebook

I will freely admit that whenever people talked about MySpace, I thought it was juvenile and I didn't see the point. Granted, I still feel a little bit that way, but I have never bothered to take the time to try an navigate it anyway. I was introduced to Facebook earlier this year and immeadiately became enchanted. It was simpler to understand than myspace and I actually had an excuse to use it because my sister lives cross country and phone calls are expensive. There was some initial frustration because at the time I did not have regular access to the internet. In September I moved into someplace where I could justify the expense since I had to get a land line anyway. It has been great to get in touch with old friends and high school acquaintances and it gives me a line to my sister as well. I wish I could say that is why I use Facebook everyday, but it's not. I am obsessed with Scrabulous. It is a great way to play Scrabble with friends via the internet. My problem now is I HAVE to win. There is a running tally of games lost and won and you are also given a rating. I don't even know how the rating system works but I do know that I want to have the highest score. Currently I have 10 different games I am playing, each with a different person. I have been so anxious to win that I spend much of the work day flipping back and forth between Facebook and the website I am building. In fact I know that I have spent too much time doing this because my boss reprimanded me yesterday. He told me that he checked my internet history and wanted me to figure out how much time I owed him. I know, intense right? So out of curiosity I checked my own history and I was appalled at the time I spent "messing around" as it were. I vow to make a conscience effort to keep myself to using my breaks and my lunch to check Facebook.

I really will try. I think.

It's a good thing that some people don't know any of the songs from "Wicked".

I have a very fashionable friend who has gradually been trying to get me to be more feminine. I do have the key elements of femininity; breasts, ovaries and....... okay maybe that's it. I like cars, college football and action movies. I have had people question me more than once and claim that I am just trying to fit in or some other ridiculous nonsense like that. I have even had my sexuality questioned because of these things and the fact that I am not married. I am not sure where these traits come from since my father is not necessarily the picture of masculinity. He is not a big burly man that oozes testosterone which would cause me as the eldest to absorb some of this. I don't even have older brothers or favorite uncles from which I gleaned my masculinity either.

The point being my fashion forward friend Marissa, who recently acquired a job at Macy's department store, has decided to make me her pet project. She started slowly almost so that I didn't notice. One day she asked if she could play with my hair and I acquiesced. Then she wanted to put some makeup on me before we got out of the car. Next she actually sat me down to do full makeup and hair. Finally this last Tuesday, she made me go shopping with her. For 2 hours I let her dress me up the whole time wondering when she was going to break into the song "Popular" from the musical Wicked. Luckily for me she doesn't know the song because I am positive if she had known there would have been singing in the dressing room.

Sigh. I guess the evolution is inevitable if I want to find a mate in this lifetime.

The Frustrations of Being SSLF

This may not be a good way to start a blog as it will probably come of sounding whiny and unappreciative, but so be it. I would first like to address the issue of being a single straight female in an LDS environment. Let me assure you that it is not easy. We are told as young women that the purpose of life is to graduate from high school, marry a returned missionary and procreate. I had to laugh recently when someone asked me what my five year plan was. Seriously? Well at 26 I thought that by now I would be married and have a child or two. So, my five year plan? I will settle for just surviving. It would be even better if every once in a while I could have a date that was not initiated by me.

Another frustration of being a single straight LDS female (hereafter known as SSLF) is the absolutely ridiculous "competition" in a singles ward. Let me give you men out there a warning, women in your singles ward become furious when the new girls get asked out and they have not had the pleasure of your company yet. I believe that most men that I know seek out the wrong type of woman. Not to say that she is an awful person or that there is anything horribly wrong with her, but most men refuse to see that they are surrounded by wonderful, beautiful women that they have never taken a second glance at. A male friend of mine, lets call him "Richard", who I had once had hopes for and who ended up being one of my best friends recently had an enlightening conversation with me. Richard claims that NO man becomes friends with a girl intending to just remain friends. I however, don't believe him because I happen to have quite a few male friends, none of whom have any interest in me. So I believe that he omits one important fact. He doesn't mean ALL girls, only those considered to be one of the few desirable.