Burnout

I have been feeling rather melancholy of late and have realized that it's just because a lot is happening right now. I am very good at taking care of the people around me and then forgetting about myself. I also have a horrible habit of not knowing when to say no. Recently I had a neighbor give me a book on boundaries that I am trying to read right now. I don't know what it says about me that someone who only sees me from afar on Sundays and for a 20 minute visit once a month knows/thinks that I need to prioritize. So much of my life lately seems to be working or attempting to please someone else. Balance is definitely needed.

I am taking an Institute class this semester and I have just had to stop wearing make-up on Tuesdays because I just end up crying in class. The teacher is amazing and it is the one place in my week that for 90 minutes I can relax and not worry about life. I don't have to explain in excruciating detail to my teacher why I am writing with a red pen or why the person next to me is wearing a turtleneck. I am me there and that is all I need to be. After a recent visit with a medical professional I have been vindicated because he says that I don't need to be worried about my health, I am just burned out. Unfortunately the thing that is making me burned out right now is not something I can change. I am just going to have to find different ways to cope.